Group exercise, not my cuppa tea.
BackstoryOK, it is Sunday morning and there is class at noon. Plenty of time to get ready. But for the last two hours, I've been talking myself out of it. It is now 11:20. Class is 20 min away. I'm not ready.
So, what is my problem? I think I just don't like group exercise. I'm a loner type. I'm an empath, and I have PTSD. I hated gym in school, hate the thought of being embarrassed by the instructor, hate feeling like an imposter. I'm 78% introvert. I'm probably higher, but I lied on some of the questions to look better.
So what DO I like? Walking, riding my bike (alone, slow-ishly), video exercise in home, weights (light weights).
I obviously have had success, lost 50# doing it like this. Both my acupuncture lady, my nutrition lady think I need to get out to exercise, with people.
Nobody really socializes at exercise. They rush in, have class, and rush off again. That's my experience. Even back in the day when I went to Jazzercise. Some people are really good at meeting other people, I'm not one of them. I'm nice, friendly, I just don't talk much in a group.
So, here's my new plan. Do what works best for me. Lately I've felt so bad about not being able to go to yoga, I've stopped everything. Like I'm a big fat failure.
Well, poof, enough of that! We're all made differently. I can hardly tell you how much relief I feel coming to this realization. It makes me feel like dancing! (alone in my house).
For now. Until **I** feel differently. Not when someone else says I should feel differently. Big lesson for me. :)