The little ifs are numerous, but are tolerated fairly well. Even ignored at times. However, it's those few big ifs that can itch maddeningly for a lifetime. I'm always applying psycho-emotional balm. Always looking for a better one.
Regrets? I've had a few. But, then again, too few to mention.
But one big what if? for me is What if I had gone to school in New York when I was 18? (NYC) Would I have been eaten alive as my grandmother said? Or would I have become an entirely different person, bold and sassy....and louder.
Six sequel. We each experience those moments, when we review episodes from our distant pasts as well as our near pasts, and replay them in our minds with different outcomes. Of course, accepting the here and now and being at peace with it is the best balm. The philosophical outlook I strive to rub on each day. But a little "change" to jingle in my pocket while I'm rubbing is just fine, too. :-)
Staraj, I'm pretty content with my here and now, but I'm going to take your change comment at face value and jingle it today. Today I am going to imagine I did go to NYC, and see how that makes me feel. I have big imagination, might as well use it for good. That way I can transform my regret into something fun.
Watch for my NYC trilogy...is that three sixes sequels??
No, no, oh gosh no. I don't want to be 18 again. Although if I was, I would love my hair a lot more than I did back then...It was long and naturally straight. All the other girls had to iron theirs. With a real iron. I didn't fully appreciate that back then.
So maybe I need to think this going back in time thing more carefully.... Today when I went for my walk I imagined I was in NYC. Tried to imagine the empty neighborhood being full of people, and cars/taxis out in the empty quiet street. So as not to get bumped, I tried to expand my personal space... but I wasn't 18. Just a much younger 60. :)
Thanks Staraj. Maybe this is enough to make me lose my what if thought! Maybe I am just fine the way I am and always have been. Feels like a six in there somewhere. Thanks to my philosophical sixer friend, whom I rarely understand but understand anyway!
these six words leapt out from the sermon I heard in church this morning. Thanks Pastor Jodi. (I attend a Baptist church which has two lady ministers on the pastoral team.)We can live with peace and joy no matter...
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ShellDeFelice says,
Only one? Or many?Staraj says,
The little ifs are numerous, but are tolerated fairly well. Even ignored at times. However, it's those few big ifs that can itch maddeningly for a lifetime. I'm always applying psycho-emotional balm. Always looking for a better one.Dragonflower says,
Regrets? I've had a few. But, then again, too few to mention.But one big what if? for me is What if I had gone to school in New York when I was 18? (NYC) Would I have been eaten alive as my grandmother said? Or would I have become an entirely different person, bold and sassy....and louder.
accidentaltourist says,
Every big "what if" breeds a whole slew of baby ones.As for balm, I recommend liberal application of cocoa butter...and rum.
Staraj says,
Different ifs. Different itches. Different balms.Six sequel. We each experience those moments, when we review episodes from our distant pasts as well as our near pasts, and replay them in our minds with different outcomes. Of course, accepting the here and now and being at peace with it is the best balm. The philosophical outlook I strive to rub on each day. But a little "change" to jingle in my pocket while I'm rubbing is just fine, too. :-)
Thanks for your feedback.
accidentaltourist says,
You know, I have long speculated what's going on with the hands in the pockets.Staraj says,
Nothing's going on . . . except when I'm speculating about what you're speculating.Dragonflower says,
Sequels to sixes? A fine idea.Staraj, I'm pretty content with my here and now, but I'm going to take your change comment at face value and jingle it today. Today I am going to imagine I did go to NYC, and see how that makes me feel. I have big imagination, might as well use it for good. That way I can transform my regret into something fun.
Watch for my NYC trilogy...is that three sixes sequels??
Staraj says,
Your chance to be "eighteen" again?canadafreeze says,
Ah, yes. So interesting to contemplate all those what ifs and the possible butterfly effect(s)...Staraj says,
Those other universes will have to learn to fend for themselves. If need be.Dragonflower says,
No, no, oh gosh no. I don't want to be 18 again. Although if I was, I would love my hair a lot more than I did back then...It was long and naturally straight. All the other girls had to iron theirs. With a real iron. I didn't fully appreciate that back then.So maybe I need to think this going back in time thing more carefully.... Today when I went for my walk I imagined I was in NYC. Tried to imagine the empty neighborhood being full of people, and cars/taxis out in the empty quiet street. So as not to get bumped, I tried to expand my personal space... but I wasn't 18. Just a much younger 60. :)
Thanks Staraj. Maybe this is enough to make me lose my what if thought! Maybe I am just fine the way I am and always have been. Feels like a six in there somewhere. Thanks to my philosophical sixer friend, whom I rarely understand but understand anyway!
Staraj says,
From your iPad/computer to God's SMITH account Favorite Stories:"Just fine the way I am."