Six Word Memoirs on Life Stories

jl333 says,

Why? What's wrong?

Layne says,

School has been really tough lately. I mean I still have all A's, but everyone I've talked to for help has said "well to what cost." And theyre probably right. I get stressed over every little thing. Nothing's easy anymore, not even things I enjoy as free time activities like running track. I explained it all more in my other memoir about "fighting to hold onto "smart-kid" status." I miss being the kid who overachieved and stayed up late finishing a project to make it perfect, but getting rewarded for it because that made it worth it. Now, I still do that, but I havent been getting the same return. Im getting 80s on all my math tests after staying after everyday to go over problems. My art project isnt turning out how I would like and scholastics art competition is a month. And the cherry on top is the AP World class im taking. Its a college level class, but Ive never been met by a class I couldnt handle. This one is a beast of its own. A 20 page chapter a week with tests each friday. A teacher who has admitted she doesnt like our class. I study for hours, and still dont do as well as my standards demand. This class was my breaking point yesterday. Sitting in class attempting to work on a huge essay due friday and I couldnt take it anymore i guess. I asked to go to the bathroom and barely made it to the counseling center before the tears started coming. I always try my very best, but I guess that's not the right thing to do because everyone keeps telling me to not care so much. It's funny, usually teachers yell at you for not trying hard enough, not the other way around. so I dont really know what to do now. I go to school every day depressed and wishing it was time to leave again. I'm usually a pretty outgoing person, but lately ive been so insecure and I walk by myself in the halls because I dont feel like talking. High school is supposed to be fun, but I dont know how to do that and manage everything else. The worst part I think is that I dont know if anyone notices. I leave class without waiting for my friends. I dont smile as much. but nobody has asked if i was okay. maybe they dont want to bring it up; i dont know. But I guess this is what rock bottom feels like...

jl333 says,

Let's just hope for a better tomorrow. And hey, don't be so hard on yourself!