Never forgotten, unless I move on.
Backstory
My first pregnancy ended in a miscarriage at just over 6 weeks. I was devastated to say the least. All I've ever wanted to be was a mother. As I am striving to pick up the pieces and start living again, I am finding certain things difficult. I have not been to the grocery store or the gym in over two weeks because it feels like that would mean I am moving on and leaving my baby behind. It's not just that. I use to love coke and would drink one every day before I got pregnant. Once I had that positive pregnancy test I made myself drink more water and wouldn't drink coke at all. Now that I can have it again. It just doesn't taste the same. I do not enjoy it. It's not that I don't have hope for the future. It's that I was this baby's only connection. I may not have carried her in my arms, but I carried her nonetheless and if I move on then she will be forgotten to this world. by MrsLebo in Six-Word Memoirs on Jun 02, 2012 | 
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MO_Thoughts2 says,
She will never be forgotten. You may not carry her in your arms, but you will carry her in your heart. But you need to begin to move on. She wouldn't want you to "die". Let yourself experience the grief and help your partner grieve too. You two won't be grieving the same way, but he will be grieving. But you need to help each other through it. You feel so alone at this time, but support groups are available and can help you through the process.You can celebrate her -- plant a tree in her honor, get a picture of an angel holding a child to hang in your house, a necklace or bracelet with a circle and a small heart (your love for her) are a few suggestions. It just needs to be something that makes you feel the connection.
Years ago, I was in the same place you are. It's hard, but you will make it. I'm now the proud mom of two amazing teenagers.
Hugs.