Feeling like an outsider. Who cares?
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I mean, after my 'change of sides', I gained many things. But it's just natural that, after putting some distance between the 'popular' girls and me, I would lose some privileges.In yesterday's party, and the one before, I felt like an in-between, a sort-of-outsider, dangling in the middle of two worlds: nice enough to have the up-side not hate me, at least.
I guess it's just the price to pay, isn't it? Who cares if I'm not one of them anymore? Most of them are bad, anyway.
by soularcher in Six-Word Memoirs on Dec 17, 2011 | 
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thesagittarian12 says,
I guess it all comes down to whether the self-respect you gain by being your own person is more important to you than the popularity you have by being part of the "in-crowd". The only person who knows the answer to that question is you.soularcher says,
Thanks sag. The think is that I can't go back with them. I've got an issue with one of them, the girl that used to be my best friend. The point is I don't want to ever be with her and her friends ever again. So it's not like I have a real choice.But sometimes I still miss the way it was, having the security that there will always be girls to hang out with and knowing you'll be invited to every single party. I don't think about it much, but the feeling's there, anyway.
And sorry about the kind-of-long rant. :/
MrsPremise says,
It's Ok, soul. You can miss someone or something and still be better off without. Usually the next relationships are even more meaningful.MrsPremise says,
Ooops! I forgot to say that they were probably asses anyway. ;-}soularcher says,
Yeah, you're a hundred percent right on that one :) I know I'm better of. I feel better. But there are some things I miss. Anyway, thanks for understanding :)