Why am I praying? No beliefs.
BackstoryWhen I moved out I walked away from everything involving god, faith, religion and tuned out whenever the topic came up. So why, now that I'm facing my future disabled am I praying and looking for something to believe in? I've had this disease since I was 9, and never has it been a topic of needing faith, I just always laughed and turned away when someone said they'd pray for me about it.
I'm just so scared and getting more and more discouraged every day.