I'm not sure if it is "lie" or "lay". But in this case, it is appropriate as "lie". Because there was some of that. This message is what I hear in my head everytime I want to call or contact the guy it has taken me years to break up with. Too many second chances, so I feel, what's one more? It is because it is Christmas and I feel nostaligic. But calling him would undo all my progress. It would create more problems than joy. I want to make my life bigger, not smaller. This should probably be in the Love catagory, but since it feels it is my daily life's work right now to keep from calling him, it is here. This is my life at the moment.