Romance not in the weekly calendar.
Backstory
I'm not sure if this means I've lost my heart somewhere along the way, but I was talking with someone about the pursuit of happiness and the reality that you can't have it all 110% all the time and be happy: if work is demanding, family time sometimes gives; if family is demanding, time with friends goes on the back burner.And I turned to this person and said, "That's why I don't date. Because I am the breadwinner, I work 2 jobs. When things are super busy with my jobs, friends won't hear from me for 2-4 weeks (and I disappear from Smith, if you didn't notice) because I don't want to take the time from my 3 kids. If I started to date, the only place it could come from is my family time, and I'm not willing to trade that for the potential something that might result."
"Makes sense," was their response.
Yes, it does...










Comments
ShellDeFelice says,
I totally get this and I only have one child at home. I have to believe that the Universe will serve up the love at the perfect time. Vienna, waits for you!midnightmaniac45 says,
The love of your life is being readied for you. Patience. What is for you will not go by you.Dragonflower says,
In my favorite holiday movie, The Holiday, Jude Law explains exactly that to Cameron Diaz. My favorite part. He explains all his duties as a single, widowed dad and ends by saying, "I have a cow in the backyard."Sometimes it is just too hard to explain about the cow in the backyard and expect someone to understand and accept it. You are wise to wait. Shell and midnightmaniac45 have the right idea. Your time for love will come to you at exactly the right moment, lillybrook!
IM says,
Romance can be a nice inconvenience.canadafreeze says,
I don't think you go looking for love ... but I like what IM's comment ...lillybrook says,
canadafreeze - one the one hand, I think you're right, but I honestly do think that in this day and (online) dating age, you have to put yourself out there, be available, and that's just not where I am -- or maybe where I'll ever be.canadafreeze says,
I have a single friend with two children. She expresses your sentiment exactly, and I understand and applaud it.Dragonflower says,
Putting myself "out there", but where?I remember an old Seinfeld where George's mother had slit for a while from her husband. She got an eyelift because she said she was "out there" now. George gets al ulpset and says "you can't be out there, because I'm out there. We can't both be out there!"
I'm holding out for Love to come knocking at my door. I thought it was him the other day, but it was the PG&E guy instead about an energy saving promotion they are doing. I'm going to get new weather stripping on my door, no charge! So at least when real Love shows up, it will be cozy in here!
lillybrook says,
Dragon - you are so funny! Clearly, some people register for dating sites, some do those singles mixers... I (for some reason) think that if I am ever "inconvenienced" by love again (good word, IM), it will be because I am somewhere, and a nice looking someone will start up a conversation, and it feel like the beginning of something and then -- it will somehow continue and not feel inconvenient at all.But right now I don't think I'd even notice that special conversation when it started; I'd be thinking that I need to wrap this up and get back to my life. Which is, in a way, really sad, I suppose. But -- like my friend said -- it makes sense.
DynamicDbytheC says,
Finally, a woman who makes her family a priority.lillybrook says,
I really enjoy my kids. Even today, I have the day off and Olivia has preschool. My older kids are with their dad in Mexico for Spring Break, and I could have a day to myself. Maybe I SHOULD take a day to myself. But I want to spend it with Olivia. She's too much fun, and our time is better than alone time.JAD says,
So sweet lillybrook. You're a mom full of love. Wow! six words. I'll submit this one.lillybrook says,
Thanks, JAD. I do love being a mom more than about anything.EnMasse says,
I wasn’t going to write a comment but something nabbed me and I came back and searched for this entry specifically. That should tell you something. Don’t be foolish woman! You look young in your picture and still have time to save yourself from a world of hurt. Know this and heed it well – the first thing your children will do is grow up; and if you raised them right, they’ll be independent and seek out their own lives. That’s the way of it, as it should be. When that happens, and it will happen sooner than a blink of your eyes, what will you have? No dates you say, no time? The one word I can impart that you should apply immediately is balance. Make it work for you. Find a better balance than you have right now. Make a date once a month, every two, whatever but do it. Make a point to see who may be looking at you. Your children will survive your date nights and you’ll be a better rounded person which will benefit your kids. When they’ve grown and see you alone, they’ll worry about you. So you see, you shouldn’t harbor any guilt to make a life for yourself separate and apart from your role as mom. Don’t let the years tumble over you, because they will. You’ll be so busy, you won’t even notice. You’ll fall into a pattern, and then it’s a habit, and after that, you won’t want to bother. I tell you this from experience, though I don’t mean it as a dire comment. Life is relentless; it won’t stop for you to hop on. I’ve read your excuses, I know them well. Believe me, 10 more years and they’ll bring you cold comfort. Don’t misunderstand my insistence; there is a right and wrong way to accommodate dating and children. I wouldn’t mix them. Again, the key word is balance – get more of it and don’t create a bad habit and use being with your kids as an excuse to avoid other issues in your life. I’m not going to say that special someone will be there for you regardless – that’s a fairytale like Cinderella. Forget it and put your feet on the ground. Find your balance, grab it, and run. Don’t be like me. Bad habits are hard to break.