Special Sundays will be the worst.
Backstory
Sundays were "our" day. In healthier times, we would go for a long bike ride and stop at the bicycler's coffee shop where we would run into somebody we knew (our form of Cheers). As James got sicker, we would do easy projects around the house. Towards the end, he would sleep most of the day and prop himself up to have dinner with me and watch some short comedy show. Even with him asleep, I could always get in bed, wrap my arms around his rib cage and hold him. I never felt lonely, even if we weren't actually doing something. Sunday, our day is now so very painful.photo-sailing the Caribbean in the 90's, therefore the haircut.
by DynamicDbytheC in Six-Word Memoirs on Love & Heartbreak on Mar 10, 2013 | 
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canadafreeze says,
Lovely memories. Hold them close. Many hugs, DD.Dragonflower says,
I was just thinking of this today about you. I have been alone now for almost as many years as you were married, minus a few (through divorce). I was thinking of what that will be like for you; to be alone now. Something I have gotten used to, finally. I agree wholeheartedly, one of the worst days are Sundays. Absolutely no doubt about it. What I can tell you won't help you today--it won't make sense for quite a while. And that is, it will get easier over time. I promise you that.I had a friend who would call me every Sunday afternoon. Because I found the time of dusk to be especially painful to be alone. End of day, but not yet dark (and bedtime). That helped a lot.
This is all so new for you, my heart breaks thinking about it. So many changes, so much to get used to. You will manage though.
So wiw, you sailed too! Nice memories as jl says! You did a lot together. That is pretty special. xxxooo
Dragonflower says,
*wow* No such word as wiw!!DynamicDbytheC says,
He sailed, I did not. I get severe motion sickness on smaller boats. His friend's dad had a sailboat in the Caribbean and they flew there and sailed the various islands.Dragonflower says,
Well that is nice too--that James got to do things he enjoyed that you weren't able to do together. I know couples who absolutely insist they do everything together and if one doesn't like a particular thing, then they have to drop it. It is a very loving relationship you had, and so respectful of one another. Please excuse my leap of assumption. But I still mean wow to your entire life together.