Sometimes, I make his suffering worse.
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After 12 days of James being in the hospital, while holding down a job, trying to do something for the Holidays, I was plain old grumpy. When James is suffering and I mean suffering, any time I am not supportive and loving hits James hard. I think, "this could be our last week together and I cheated him or us out of something good." I suffer when I fail him. Yet I try to accept that I am human. But there are a couple of moments that I will think of in the future where I failed him. by DynamicDbytheC in Six-Word Memoirs on Love & Heartbreak on Dec 19, 2012 | 
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Dragonflower says,
I have this feeling that if you asked James, he would not agree that you failed him. Caretakers absolutely must take care of themselves as it is very hard to see someone suffering and in pain. It is so normal to get a little grumpy. It is also hard for the patient to express all their gratitude because of tiredness, etc. But it's there. I am very certain James is grateful for your love, even when it is grumpy. Be gentle with yourself. You are wonderful, patient, and kind.Wench says,
You have been with him through all of this and he loves you. And he knows that you love him. You can't always hold it together, it's ok to fall apart sometimes. I agree with Autumn22. I don't think James feels like you've failed him. Your love for him means everything.canadafreeze says,
You are being way too hard on yourself. Your love shines through every memoir - if I know you love James, James knows he is loved. That's all that matters. You're allowed to be human. Wish I could surround you in hugs:-)