Six Word Memoirs on Life Stories

marymc says,

Dark
Empty
Lonely
Frustrating
Bleak
Fixable

Dean6805 says,

"I want to hope but simply can't."

Dean6805 says,

Oops, that's 7. Drop the "I."

Wench says,

It feels like this is forever.

Dragonflower says,

Feeling heavier and heavier, slow motion.
When smiling feels like hard work.
Nothing makes you laugh, not_even Ellen. (truest test I know)

maryjane31 says,

cloud (black)
scary
empty
anguish
self-disgust
please make it go away.

thesagittarian12 says,

Black dog won't 'lie down' happily.

TKO-Rich says,

6 Words to say thanks: I thought I was alone:)

marymc says,

You are so not alone. I almost wonder if those that are prone to it are drawn to here.

TKO-Rich says,

I hope so. Thinking that I can let someone else know that I understand life super-suck for those of us with these issues, it will likely get better very soon...only to suck really bad again. It's a hell of a rock to push up the hill but I suppose everyone is trapped in their own Sisyphus curse. I have been to the lowest parts of my soul and unfortunately saw nothing but dark. In my world light is seen through others...that's why I am forced to reach out. I only know happy from the descriptions you give.

Believe says,

"Homesick, even when you are home." Or at least that's how Sarah Silverson was quoted.

ErikaStellar says,

I wrote a memoir a while back which is my mantra while I survive depression:

"Find one happy thing each day."

Sometimes finding even one happy thing is the hardest part of the day, but if you spend your day searching for the happy, you will see it is there. Regardless if the sun is shining, or the rain is quenching the earths thirst, or if the snow is enveloping the earth in its white cozy blanket, happiness is out there. Some days the happy thing is just some mundane task, or maybe ice cream (makes everything better), or looking at lolcats or thechive (which you should check out if you haven't before). Figure out what makes you happy; sometimes for me it was buying a cute new pair of undies, not sure if that is your thing, no judgement if it is, but seriously, anything that fits your description of something good is where the happy hides. It takes serious mental forcing to let your self enjoy the happy things in life. You have you let it in and accept that it is ok for you to be happy for that one moment. For those of us that survive depression, we have to train our thoughts to recognize these moments.

And as stated already above by the others, you are not alone. I still have setbacks. We all do. It's knowing how to pick back up that makes them setbacks instead of quitting.

What did you find today?

Dragonflower says,

Sadness today. Sadness tomorrow. Infinite sadness.
What ErikaStellar says is so true. It takes serious mental resetting to make it be Happiness today....but looking for that one good thing makes all the difference!

kathi_wright says,

fighting seduction of long infinite nap

canadafreeze says,

You are most definitely not alone.
Writing helps many of us say "outloud" what we dare not speak in public.
I hope you get past the darkness and find your own light.

TKO-Rich says,

simple coincidence led me to this sight after i submitted my 6 words. since then, it's as if i have stumbled into a group of genuinely good people. i have seen the darkest parts of my soul and try daily to avoid even getting near that place. surrounding myself with good things is part of that survival. i don't want to die again; however, the thought of starting over is appealing. i would like to make one request of those who read this, in conjunction with erika's awesome suggestion. once you have found that good thing each day SHARE it with somebody, anybody. what you guys don't know is that those of us experiencing severe depression wake up every day wanting to die. the pain is unbearable at times and the temptation to end it via my own hand is almost magnetic. therefore, i never need a reason to do it...it's always there. i look for reasons NOT to do it (by it, i mean suicide). with that being said, you never know what the smallest gesture may be that take somebody off or pushes them over the edge. be that reason NOT to. my best example is this. to mary, erika, dragon kathi, canada and the rest of the people that have written in thus far, thanks for being my reason NOT to today. something so little as a comment saved my life and reminded me that i am not alone. i think threatening suicide is a fickle and weak attempt at garnering attention so that is not what i am saying here. i am simply saying that you guys provided me with just enough support that today is not an option for even thinking self-harm. love.

Dragonflower says,

Patting myself on the shoulder always helps me feel happier. Makes me realize I am really here, kind of grounding. When I'm out and about, I smile at people, even the grumpy ones (especially on days when I'm the grumpy one!).

Dhani says,

EASY AS PIE: fear, anger, jealousy, expectation, neediness & doubt.

Dhani says,

(P.S. How could any soul be 'depressed' when standing at the edge of this turquoise ocean & gray-glory of clouds...love the pic!)

TKO-Rich says,

Very, very, extremely thankful for the feedback and input received thus far. You guys move mountains.

NumbrOneAunt says,

i cannot pretend to say i know what you're feeling, because although i've been through some sad times in my life, what you describe is not the same as sadness - not even deep sadness as at the loss of a loved one. i hope you are seeing a therapist? and if you are, but the therapeutic relationship isn't working for you, continue searching until you find a therapist who is a good fit for you. you might be too young to remember an advice columnist named ann landers, but i used to read her regularly. she stated repeatedly that she was a strong believer in therapy and that it is sometimes necessary to search to find the right therapist but it is always worth the search. hope this doesn't come across as preachy - i honestly don't mean it that way. wishing for you what you need to make it through, one day at a time.

kathi_wright says,

even in darkest times, there is a light every day, even if one has to look hard for it. it takes courage to put one foot in front of the other some days and not give up. (and therapy is a great thing.) one of my earlier memoirs, 'savoring this sweet and sour life,' (and not just in a gastronomic sense) sums it up for me. share your light! (know you have it!)

Dragonflower says,

Everything seems sort of gray when you feel depressed, so even the gorgeous blue water looks kinda dull. But it is a nice photo. Is is real? I'm always commenting on photos that turn out to be from the web!!

NOA is absolutely right about a therapist. Even calling a hotline can be so beneficial in times of despair. They know the right things to say and will help you. I have a feeling you will take good care of yourself and will seek professional help if needed. In the meantime, plan something to do tomorrow. Even if it is just the laundry! Laundry has lifted my spirits many times! I swear by it! Takecare!

Wench says,

I think sometimes we just need to hear someone say - hey, things suck. I'm here for you.

Hey, things suck. We're here for you.

KharisJo says,

Cherish yourself. Keep hoping. Sending hugs{{{}}}

KharisJo says,

p.s. beautiful photo :) life is better at the beach.

TKO-Rich says,

wow, still amazed at the community here. looks like i have found a temporary home. thanks for taking the time to comment. yes, the photo is real. it's seems unbelievable to conceive that someone who has a life resume full of good shit can't seem to find plausible reasons to live some days; however, when i look at that picture, you know what i see:

i fat, my tattoos are uneven, i can't swim, i have sensitive skin that itches and burns at the beach around salt water, i had done a nasty leg workout the day before and my legs seized up on the flight, the food was expensive, i thought too much about work and couldn't relax, employees called me for nonsense, i checked email when i shouldn't have, there isn't much conch in everything they call conch, etc...you get the point.

Dhani says,

(Small, hand-painted wood sign outside a Catholic Church somewhere in Africa: 'Be not afraid. I am with you.')

unknown116 says,

TKO-Rich, your first comment on here was amazingly written. One of my memoirs was "the depressed have to work harder." In my opinion, that sheer fact makes our lives that much more filling. I read a quote once, "There is no life in never falling. Life is getting up when you do." When you feel like giving up, remind yourself how strong you are for never giving up. Some people let themselves drift into their self doubt, self hate, sadness, depression...but when you face it, live with it, you push yourself with it.

Contemplative says,

Olympic hurdles requiring coaching, support, recognition.

Steve__Anthony says,

Steve, my mother's coming next week.

Wench says,

Head feels heavy. Moving takes effort.