Loved. I've been on either side of betrayal and it does its fair share of damage, but my fear is of allowing someone to know my vulnerabilites and weaknesses. Allowing someone to love you means you either let them in, which is scary enough, or you let them keep knocking until you open the door. There are some people it's very difficult to accept love from. Usually the ones who have the most to give, who can handle all the bad parts and want to.
A life without love makes me even more afraid. I've spent three years now with a man who is thoroughly, stubbornly in love with me and although sometimes I have said horrible things to him because of the dark places I was in, he continues to wake up every morning with a smile and tell me how happy he is to be with me. After a while, I started to realize that's what love actually is. Everything else has been attraction and convenience. He lifts me out of my dark places and I do the same for him and no amount of bad days can make us stop wanting to wake up together.
By the way, for me, at least, this really goes hand-in-hand with seasonal depression. It's very difficult to let someone love you when you are struggling to love yourself. When Spring rolls around, I'm usually much better.
I have year round depression. And when I start to care about someone, and them for me, I begin to open up and openning up makes all of the shattered peices of my heart poor out. And when it poors out it's a painful experience for me and the one that cares for me. I'm scared to find what is hidden beneith all of those broken pieces.
Amapola, I've been through situations like that on numerous occassions. It's never healthy, but in situations like that you learn more about yourself and you learn what to steer clear of in the next relationship.
AngstyPoet, I understand your statement completely. Hopefully one day we both will find someone that we will fight ourselves not to push away and that that someone will see the signs and love anyway.
I have no fear of being loved.
Being betrayed by someone I love…yes… but I love anyhow.
I have been deeply betrayed and I have done things I know my loved ones felt was a betrayal to them (they were not your everyday types of betrayal).
I don’t allow “high risk people” that close to my heart anymore.
I cut hurtful people out and sometimes that’s cold on my part but I am really loving and warm to the people closest to me and they treat me likewise.
I don’t think we fear love as much as it’s loss and while some of us may feel undeserving…
love seems to be the very best reason to do anything.
You both could easily be correct. It just depends on who you are talking to. I believe you are either the person that fears being loved, falling in love, or losing love. I'm the person who is afraid of being loved.
Not exactly. I'm afraid of being loved because of many reasons. I feel the main reasons are that I don't deserve to be loved and that I may end up devoting myself to the wrong person. But I'm sure when I find someone I will push my fear aside for, my new fear will be losing him.
Nope. I have great self-esteem. It's just my whole life I never felt loved, so my mind kind of adapted to that.
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Wench says,
Every day. But he won't stop. And I'm starting to feel safer letting him.unknown116 says,
I'm so afraid of people caring about me...Wench says,
Loved. I've been on either side of betrayal and it does its fair share of damage, but my fear is of allowing someone to know my vulnerabilites and weaknesses. Allowing someone to love you means you either let them in, which is scary enough, or you let them keep knocking until you open the door. There are some people it's very difficult to accept love from. Usually the ones who have the most to give, who can handle all the bad parts and want to.marymc says,
I tell him, "Please never leave me" more often than I should.unknown116 says,
Romantic love is what scares me the most.Wench says,
A life without love makes me even more afraid. I've spent three years now with a man who is thoroughly, stubbornly in love with me and although sometimes I have said horrible things to him because of the dark places I was in, he continues to wake up every morning with a smile and tell me how happy he is to be with me. After a while, I started to realize that's what love actually is. Everything else has been attraction and convenience. He lifts me out of my dark places and I do the same for him and no amount of bad days can make us stop wanting to wake up together.Wench says,
By the way, for me, at least, this really goes hand-in-hand with seasonal depression. It's very difficult to let someone love you when you are struggling to love yourself. When Spring rolls around, I'm usually much better.unknown116 says,
I have year round depression. And when I start to care about someone, and them for me, I begin to open up and openning up makes all of the shattered peices of my heart poor out. And when it poors out it's a painful experience for me and the one that cares for me. I'm scared to find what is hidden beneith all of those broken pieces.Amapola says,
More afraid to mistake clinging for love - My ex BF always said he loved me until he didn't need me anymore. I believed him, and he wore me out.TheAngstyPoet says,
Real true love. I'm afraid to lose it. I'm also afraid of when people get attached to me and then I start to push them away.unknown116 says,
Amapola, I've been through situations like that on numerous occassions. It's never healthy, but in situations like that you learn more about yourself and you learn what to steer clear of in the next relationship.AngstyPoet, I understand your statement completely. Hopefully one day we both will find someone that we will fight ourselves not to push away and that that someone will see the signs and love anyway.
Dhani says,
One of the greatest human fears that CHEAT us out of being loved and being loving.unknown116 says,
Isn't that the truth...ba_miracle says,
I have no fear of being loved.Being betrayed by someone I love…yes… but I love anyhow.
I have been deeply betrayed and I have done things I know my loved ones felt was a betrayal to them (they were not your everyday types of betrayal).
I don’t allow “high risk people” that close to my heart anymore.
I cut hurtful people out and sometimes that’s cold on my part but I am really loving and warm to the people closest to me and they treat me likewise.
I don’t think we fear love as much as it’s loss and while some of us may feel undeserving…
love seems to be the very best reason to do anything.
Dhani says,
miracle -no, I believe humans FEAR love, more than the loss of it. That's my experience.unknown116 says,
You both could easily be correct. It just depends on who you are talking to. I believe you are either the person that fears being loved, falling in love, or losing love. I'm the person who is afraid of being loved.Dhani says,
unknown: your reasoning is this: I'm afraid of being loved because I'm afraid that after I enjoy the experience, I will LOSE it.unknown116 says,
Not exactly. I'm afraid of being loved because of many reasons. I feel the main reasons are that I don't deserve to be loved and that I may end up devoting myself to the wrong person. But I'm sure when I find someone I will push my fear aside for, my new fear will be losing him.Dhani says,
UNK: You are afraid of being loved 'cuz 'I don't deserved to be loved'? Isn't that loss of self-esteem?MsKillie says,
Not at all. I was once afraid that I'd never find true love, but now that I did all is well!unknown116 says,
Nope. I have great self-esteem. It's just my whole life I never felt loved, so my mind kind of adapted to that.