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Will I ever forgive myself, goddamnit?

by wescoll in Six Words Questions on Sep 24, 2011 | add favorite | T-shirt

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marymc says,

You have to. You just have to.

wescoll says,

Thanks Mary. Working on it.

oopsalittle says,

agree with mary - keep working on it

wescoll says,

Thanks oopsalittle.

Sagacious says,

I have a problem with the idea of people being 100% responsible for their actions; much better to try to understand WHY you did what you did rather than beating yourself over the head. To my way of thinking, understanding beats forgiveness any day.

wescoll says,

Well put, thesagittarian12. At the same time, we do have to owe our decisions and, even when you've honored them for years after, there's still room to revisit them. Not to change them, because it's no longer possible, but to try to learn something so not to find yourself in the same position over and over.
That's when I sometimes faulter and wonder why can't I just find a way to live as if everything I've done in life was ok, no regrets, all perfectly sensible and absolutely the right (and only thing) I could've done. It may be so to some people, but I always have to work extra hard at these things.
To your point, most of the time I know exactly why I did what I've done and am willing to respond for my actions. There are moments, though, that that doesn't seem to be enough to sooth me and I despair. The six-question proposition caught me in one of those moments.
I'm always amazed, though, to find out what tickles people. I've written now hundreds of sentences, some much better than others, and none particularly brilliant, of course, but this one seemed to have touched a nerve. As they say, glad to help and thanks for the input.

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