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I had always heard talk of unconditional love but never knew exactly what it meant until I gave birth. Afterward, I stared into my daughter's gray-blue eyes, noted the dimple on her chin and smoothed her dark hair. I fell in love. Deeply. When I started breastfeeding, that was it. Game over. I cried each time and couldn't get over the fact that she depended on me completely for her …
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"You've got a month to go". That's what the doctor said the day before my water broke. I rolled over and woke up to a feeling of warm, wetness. I thought I had peed in our bed. My husband didn't believe me. He was convinced he could go to work and not have to deal with the ugly mess of having a baby. He asked me …
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"You've got a month to go". That's what the doctor said the day before my water broke. I rolled over and woke up to a feeling of warm, wetness. I thought I had peed in our bed. My husband didn't believe me. He was convinced he could go to work and not have to deal with the ugly mess of having a baby. He asked me …
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My first was premature, born in a hospital, Pitocin punching him out of me. The second time would be different. I planned a home birth: I piled up a birth pool, rubber gloves, motherwort tincture, old towels, plastic shower curtains, a bowl for the placenta. Water broke, midwives arrived, pushing began. Though I'd planned everything, I couldn't control anything. I was an angry, raving, roving Neanderthal. …
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Pregnant! A new mom gushing with pleasure to have finally conceived. I will be one of those moms with beautiful, radiant skin and glowing perfect like sunshine and Demi Moore on the cover of Vanity Fair. My stomach will swell perfectly round and I will be all too happy to have a new wardrobe sized perfectly around me and my precious little King. Or will I? Instead …
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My husband wouldn't survive breakfast without his peanut butter. Married 48 years, he still spreads it lavishly on his toast.
Our first child hearalded his arrival 2 days after I had missed my cycle. EPT tests were unheard of in my child-bearing years but when the peanut butter melted on the warm toast, the aroma floated to my nasal passages and introduced me to "morning …
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A second baby who was supposed to come out easy ("second babies are a breeze!") but decided to remain breech no matter what I did--including laying in funny positions (nothing like a pregnant woman trying to basically stand on her head), chiropractic treatment, acupuncture, burning mugwort next to my pinky toes (this was hubby's favorite), and eventually an attempted version (um, where they physically try to turn your baby from …
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My daughter made her debut ten days early. No problem except I wasn't packed, hadn't showered, and my legs weren't shaved. Eight hours after I went into labor, the OB/GYN announced to everyone in the room that I had a "storybook delivery." Let's review. I didn't get any pain meds; I was left buck naked and freezing on the table afterward; and my regular obstetrician was unavailable so I was …
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I'd known for months so I guess I'd forgotten how terrifying and confusing it can be to find out that a baby is coming. Most miscarriages happened in the first trimester and since my pregnancy was out of that stage, it was time to tell the father. I thought I was safe. I thought she was safe. But I'd also forgotten the spontaneity of violence. And after the most brutal …
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I was determined to have my baby naturally. My husband and I took the required Lamaze classes very seriously and I wanted a natural childbirth. When we arrived at the ER, I was dilated four centimeters and handling the pain fairly well. Then, came my first-ever IV and first-ever enema. I wasn't happy but so far, so good. A couple of hours into the hard labor, I caved in and …
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I'll never forget when I couldn't see my toes. I hadn't realized my tummy was that big, but one day in the shower, I looked down and my toes were nowhere to be found! I guess my cravings for pepperoni pizza, Mexican food, and yes, pickles combined with that little growing baby inside caught up with me. From behind, I didn't gain a pound but when I turned sideways, …
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For the first trimester, I had terrible morning sickness, and unfortunately, worked at a hospital. You know the smell. It hits you right in the face when you walk in. I spent most days as green as a martian. And the doctors had a strange sense of humor. Sometimes during meetings, they'd place an organ in a jar in front of my chair. Ha funny ha. There was an upside--I …
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I went into labor ten days early. At 3:15 a.m., I awakened my snoring husband who announced, "It's false labor" and rolled over. I plumped my pillow and stared nervously at the clock. Realizing I hadn't shaved my legs, I got the job done in the bathroom sink--lying in the floor every time a contraction hit. I scowled at my still-snoring husband. By 8 a.m., my contractions were just five …
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At 35 weeks my blood pressure was high. The doctor sent us to the hospital. In our naivety we thought they were just going to draw blood or make me lie down for an hour. Four hours later, my unborn daughter and I near death, we were loaded on a helicopter and flown to another state's expert neo-natal intensive care unit.Six more hours and my 2 1/2 pound daughter was …
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First time thrilled. Told no one. Good Friday miscarriage at 12 weeks. Partner drove me 2 hours to hug Mom and Dad that weekend after D & E.
Second time hesitant. Told extended family at family reunion. Told work. 18 weeks pre-term labor at home in the bathroom. 911. Ambulance to the hospital. Mom & Dad in town for cremation.
Third time petrified. Afraid to set up initial …
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February 2006 Misarriage. June 2006 Asherman's Syndrome. Infertile. Devastated. Research. Found support group. September 2006 Los Angeles. Surgery. Correction. Home. January 2007 Pregnant. October 2007 Baby. Lovely boy. Both of us and our family are happy and whole now.
Not one emergency clinic I called was open. Everybody was partying. It was Fourth of July for them, too.
Well, said Alessandro. What do you hear?
"Heartbeats in a few days if someone doesn't help." I smiled, hopeful.
Ale kept his eyes on the knot he was tying in the sloppy condom he dug out of me.
Finally, an office with a message service: I …
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I slid my purchases across the counter to "Jerome," my Sav-On cashier.
"Just a quiet night at home," I said.
He laughed and bagged my stuff--microwave popcorn, a 2-liter of Coke and a pregnancy test--and handed me my change. His smile was friendly.
"Hey," he said. "I know how it is. Gonna get a movie from next door?" Blockbuster was next door.
Jeff sidled up …
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It’s the summer of love, or so they say now. Seventeen and pregnant, out of sync with the times,
I stomp out the door one day and strut along until a wolf whistle at my back stops me cold. I balance myself on the uneven sidewalk and turn to face some old man in a red convertible. Babies havin’ babies, he says, and when my face falls he …
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From opposite sides, we peered at the little plus sign.
"I guess this means we gotta get married."
I sighed deeply at his flat marriage proposal.
Later that week, the doctor began his informational portion of the visit. "They don't do abortions here in town, but you can go to the Valley clinic. They fill up pretty fast, so better call today."
My words were small and meek, "I'm planning …
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