Having My Own Life

a new life

Some would say I have the perfect life. But something has changed in me and I want to have my OWN Life. A life where I can be independent, self-sufficient, answer to no one but myself. Is it crazy to want to leave a 31 year marriage? Leave a beautiful home where I have lived for 28 years? Be alone and responsible for myself for the first time in 53 years? What would it feel like? Is this freedom I crave worth what I will be giving up? Is this independence I want attainable? I'm afraid, but motivated. I feel that I have crossed the line to where I can't feel the same ever again. I must go forward. I must have patience. I must stay focused. I must have a plan in place. I need to do this for my sanity. I need to know that I can make it on my own before I leave this world.