I don’t even know where to begin as I write this note. I can’t even comprehend our friendship. You are by far my best friend and you always will be. I want to cry, because of the emotions i’m feeling right now. I don’t know why I want to cry, maybe it’s because I am so greatful to have you in my life. Or I’m so happy to have the honor of knowing you. Maybe its both, and so much more. Nobody knows me like you do, sometimes I feel like you know me better then I do. You have helped me through the toughest moments in my life. You drove me to the hospital and walked me up to my dieing mom’s room. That walk in itself symbolizes our friendship. We walk through the hardest of times together andwe always get through with our heads held high. Maybe that’s why God brought me to you. Maybe he knew that I by myself couldn’t get through life alone. The way we lean on eachother and motivate and help eachother it’s possibly the single most powerful thing we are capable of. We are like those 2 puzzle pieces in a puzzle that even if everything else in the puzzle is wrong. We know without a doubt that those 2 puzzle pieces are perfect and exactly where they need to be. Together, as friends. We are pieces to a puzzle metaphorically speaking. You and I combined with all the memories we share and the future we hold piece together the greatest puzzle of all. Life. and as corny and lame as I sound it’s true.
You show me what a real friendship is. We’ve had our arguments, and we’ve done things to hurt eachother and piss eachother off, but we always fix it and get our way through it. I don’t think I would be who I am today if it wasn’t for you. You helped me form who I am, and find myself. You’ve made me laugh when i’m dieing of pain inside, and i’ve told you things i’ve never told anyone. You motivate me to be a better person, and to do what I love. You are so unique and you don’t care what people think about you as long as you are enjoying yourself and I love that.
You know my story, and I don’t think I could push through everything without you. You were there. In the bathroom just 3 weeks ago when I was told the hardest, most painful news i’d ever been told in my life. You see movies where people get told hard news and everything around them doesn’t exist anymore. That’s actually not how it’s like and you were with me when I experienced it. I was holding the phone and when Sarah told me about the accident I honestly thought she was kidding. I sware I thought it was all a joke. Partly, because I had a feeling it would happen and I was scared that I had predicted it, but also because it’s one of those things you would think would never happen to you. I help the phone and just cried as Sarah told me the story. You were standing right next to me, and all I was thinking wasn’t ” I hope my mom’s okay.” no it was actually ” I need to get off the phone and tell Rachel right now. I need to hear what she has to say.”
Whenever something happens all I think about is what you will say to it. You always know EXACTLY what to say. Maybe it’s because we are so close and alike you just tell me what you would tell yourself. I don’t know, all I do know is I don’t think I would be who I am if it wasn’t for you. I think I would’ve given up a long time ago, and I wouldn’t be as spunky as I am. I realized about a year ago, that I show my true self to you and only you. Whenever i’m in a position where I want to be bubbly or loud or jump around or something crazy, all I think is “I wish rachel was here” mainly because i’m actually really shy when you’re not around. I am so comfortable around you that if anyone else is around I act normal, but when your gone I won’t do half the stuff I usually do. You make me complete honestly. You’ve seen my cry to the point that I can’t think straight. You’ve seen me mad to the point that I might actually hurt someone, and you’re the one that helps me when i’m at my extremes. I love you, and those words get thrown around a lot, but I honestly do love you. You are my sister, and I’ve told you this before, but in 20 years I know we will still be friends. I don’t give a damn what happens. The fucking world could blow up and once it was all done you and I would crawl out of a den or something like “FUCK YEAH” or “well shit what should we do first!” or just something crazy. Promise me you’ll never leave. Promise me we will stay friends no matter what rumors get started, or if a guy comes along. No matter what, just promise me if anything ever happens you will talk to me before making assumptions or anything. I will promise all of these things to you. I heard that thunder just now and it scared the shit out of me, but made me realize this is perfect weather to type this up for you, because thunderstorms make me think of you. Over the past 10 years you and I have made a sisterhood, and I would die without you. literally. I don’t think I would have made it this long. I love you sister <3