But as the rain falls, I can see a rainbow on the horizonTo sum up my family situation in one word- chaotic. And most would think that with each new day would come at least a tad bit of healing...not so much. It's quite difficult to find a purpose to live when the people who brought me into this would find any small thing they can to degrade my existence. But more than that, it's hard to follow the will on my God. He whispers truth to my heart while the world screams lies to my mind. I have faced my trials and pains, love and loss, hate and rejection, fear and despair. And I'm not finished yet. I wish deeply that following Jesus was easy, that I didn't have to deal with so much hurt. But as the rain falls, I can see a rainbow on the horizon.