It was better than the state fair...It was better than the state fair. There was the roller coaster of emotions -- constantly up and down, making my stomach sick one minute, then making me throw my hands up in the air with delight the next. And there was the haunted house of old ghosts and skeletons in the closet. And there were the funhouse mirrors, making everything seem better than it was. And then there were the freak shows -- the world's tiniest woman, the half-grizzly man, the world's biggest pig -- and I was all of them. His rejection of my love and my unwillingness to realize it made me the biggest freak show of all.