Jaded but hopeful

I just hope that I can find a man that I love as much as I loved her.

We met in high school and loved each other for four years, but ultimately, she chose her friends over me. I gave up everything for her, including my chances at a career right out of college, but she refused to do what was right for us when we started to go under.
I'm living comfortably and she can't pay any of her bills. At first, it ate me up inside, but now, I'm happy.
I just hope that I can find a man that I love as much as I loved her.
I know what i need now and I know what I want. I just hope that he exists somewhere out there.
I'm trying online dating for just a little longer and I have high hopes. I'm just scared too.