Life Changing Mistake

My wife and I were happy professionals, living the good life in Hawaii. Then, I did what I had done my entire life, got bored and looked for someone who idolized me. someone who made me feel more special than I was. I met a woman who met my superficial needs and it soon escalated from an affair to a series of bad decisions and my failed marriage. I married the woman knowing she was wrong, but I had to save face and convince everyone that I made a conscious decision based on true love. Everyone was fooled and accepts my decision, except me. Now my life is empty, meaningless and void of all pleasures. I have already gone to Hell.