Still Alive

Last two years of college I worked at the town's hot new bar. My costume? A cat print leotard with tail, whiskers, fishnet stockings and 5 inch spike heels. One day my Accounting professor walked in with his family and said "You're doing this to make money?" I reminded him that I still scored straight A's in his class.

I felt uncomfortable but I kept on working. Where else could I make that kind of money?

Still, at school I managed to get on the Dean's honor … Read more »

This is the story

This is the story of a boy and a girl. He was looking for some girl to boast about to his friends. She was looking for love. they found each other, and found what they were looking for. they girl thought she found her prince charming, and the boy found his sucker.
And so they went out. the girl was happy. He treated her right, and listened to her. the boy was happy. she was hot, and a girl all boys wanted. And so he talked. and when he was … Read more »

Cameras See Everything

Coach Haynes was the best english teacher I had. She made my freshman year memorable, but her son, Andy, made my sophomore year even more important. He was my first boyfriend, tall, thin, and adorably geeky. To him, I was just a "little girl", though I was only a year and some odd months younger than him. He was my first kiss, first, "I love you", and first make out. Coach Haynes won't let me forget that. How did his mom find out about the intamacy of our relationship? One … Read more »

Ex Best Friend

The ages of 7-9 were very hard for me. My dog that I'd had my entire life died, and the two people I was closest to had died. On top of that my parents decided to get divorced. I didn't act out on any of this untill middle school, but that never went further than being an outright JERK to my mother and my stepfather and never going to see my dad. Then in high school I met this girl and we became instant best friends. We did everything together, … Read more »

Baobabs, Leatherbacks, and You

I am in St Croix for the baobabs.
I know so much about them I sometimes forget that I’ve never seen one in real life. I am dying to see one, to glimpse in person something I’ve been researching for so long. I’ve spent so many hours combing through articles about the tree. Articles about the medicinal uses of its leaves, about the nutritional powder made from crushing the seeds, and of course the insects. That is why I study it, for the insects. The cotton-stainer that breeds on the … Read more »

stalk,blackmail,depression

We had been friends for over 5 years. Niether felt this closely connected until last september. We started dating and learned each others secrets. I found he had a very painful past, he was abused, depressed and had attempted suicide.. Or so i thought. Many of my friends began telling me how he lied to them all the time and i began to question. Many of his storys began to fall apart. After two months i ended it with him. He began texting me and showing up at my house … Read more »

He never loved me....aparently!

6 months. I know it doesnt sound like much, but to me it was. I never slept with him (thank god), never even made out with him. He was the perfect gentleman. Going into it i never expected love, but I found it waiting for me with open arms! 6 months came and gone, and one day he broke it off saying "I dont think I ever loved you, I dont really even think i know what love is." I had noone growing up, and verbaly abusive father and only … Read more »

Issues and Love

It took nearly five months for me to fall in love with him. It took him only two to fall in love with me.

Let me be up front with this: I have issues. I have lots of issues.

One of these "issues" is my inability to open up to people and to ever let anyone all the way into my head. I couldn't. I still can't.

And this is why we are no longer a we. No longer an us.

Unfortunately, I think … Read more »

I Was His Dirty Little Secret

He dated a friend I went to elementary school with. Told her he'd kill himself if she ever left him... should have listened to her when she said he was crazy.
We started dating and he seemed very protective and nice. I started hanging out with some different people and we grew apart quickly. We broke up and moved on (so I thought) to other people. I dated a guy for 4 years, he dated girls on and off. He was my rebound when I broke up with my … Read more »

A Very Curious Thing

Time has always felt fluid to me, but never more than when I was with him. Hours would flash by in a second, months elapsed in a day. A week was a year in his company. "A lifetime within a lifetime." It seems impossible, yet it was so. "Hello" never came soon enough, and "goodbye" was ever snatching us apart too soon. 

Laughter pealed out like the bells of a cathedral wherever we were. I loved that. More than our laughter, I loved listening to him talk. He could … Read more »

Never Ending!

Me and my Girlfriend broke up after going out for 6 months exactly! We talked very little for months, i was heart broken, i couldnt bear i lost my first Girlfriend over something which to me meant quite a bit, but because i was insecure, what i thought was important, really wasnt!
It was a long time ago, and i can't remember the details, but we started speaking properly, over about a year, we grew into best friends, we were inseprable, i was so happy she was finally back in … Read more »

3 weeks / 21 days

Love is a funny thing. It sneaks in & tears down all of the walls that took so many years & tears to build. I didn't expect to fall in love with him but he tore down the walls & made me forget the tears.
I met him in a time of strength & solitude & happiness. I met him when I, for the first time, truly felt like myself. I met him & he showed me the kind of love that I thought … Read more »

i still love yu.

Dear ex-boyfrend,

everything is my fault!
all of this happened between yu and I is all because of me!
if i hadn't done what i did,we probably would have still been together.
i kno we would because if that hadn't happened,i wuld have done anything to make our relationship work!
but i believe that everything happens for a reason
and noone is perfect,everyoone makes a mistake in our life that we will regret!
&& i regret this one,if i could have taken bakk' and do this all over i … Read more »

My best friend's asshole of an ex

Ten years, new girl, memory loss.

We dated for about 2 years before he cheated on me. he then blamed the entire incident on me, saying it was my fault for never "listening to him." Eventually we broke up, best decision i've ever made. i only then realized that i dated him out of extreme guilt.

my friend facebook stalked him this year (we broke up in 2009) and told me that he has gained roughly 30 lbs.

i suppose karma can be quite bitchy, no?

You Turned Me Into You

And I kept telling myself that I hated you, but we both know that's not true. You pride yourself in being my first love. I think it was your ego, really. Your uncontrollable need to be in the center of everything.

There's not really even that much to love. You're hurtful, you like to play around with people's emotions. Life is a big game to you. You even told me yourself.

"I like to create huge webs of lies. There fun to keep up with. They make life … Read more »

conversations between a boy and a girl, in four parts with a one-line epilogue.

He says, i can break your arm.
she replies, its not just my arm you can break.

he says, free yourself this afternoon.
and she replies, only if you will.

and he asks, can i kiss you?
and she replied, yes.

he asks, how’ve you been.
and she replies, i’ve been living.
with or without you.

i gave you my heart, you gave me the flu and a lousy cry.

The Magician

My ex-husband was a professional magician whose best trick ever was making me disappear.

Not in Custody

Call my ex-housemate Dawson. I’m short but he was shorter. And tinier, bonier, thinner, with an oversized head and eyes. He told me once that he had been born with a tumor pressing on some gland that allows you to grow. That made him small.

He played the theremin like a weirdo and used to hang upside down on a contraption screwed into his door frame. He liked me more than I liked him. I think he would be surprised to know I didn’t really like him. I can … Read more »

Getting Clean

Two days after we broke up I received a package in the mail. It contained the following items:

1. A toothbrush I used a few times at her place.
2. A small sketch I had quickly done to explain stained-glass windows.
3. A ten-dollar coin bank in the shape of a robot.
4. A pen.

I added the contents of this package to the shopping bag of stuff she dropped off for me that held more gifts I had given her like lingerie and a dress. In short, … Read more »