My Temporary Marriage

We both agreed to the delusional fix-it fantasy too soon after his wife left. We dragged four adolescents in our wake for four years of stubborness, disguised as commitment and hope. I finally found the courage to listen--really listen--to his complaints and I realized that he wasn't happy and I wasn't either. I saved us all by initiating the divorce and then it was pretty much Happily Even After once the severance pay arrived and our half of the "family" moved out. Love & Thanks to all who suffered and … Read more »

I loved him, and he didn't care.

No More

No More

All was for you.
The good, the bad.
My friend, my love.

I never knew.
You never spoke.
Hidden feelings.

Our love is dead.
My fault
Not sure

Anger, self doubt, questions
How quickly we build walls of silence and fear.
Disguised by curtains of wine.

Monotony of years gone by.
Many faults I do have.
The Black and White.

Wasted years,
Wasted tears.
Our love is dead.

PeterVaillancourt©2009.

No More

All was for you.
The good, the bad.
My friend, my love.

I never knew.
You never spoke.
Hidden feelings.

Our love is dead.
My fault
Not sure

Anger, self doubt, questions
How quickly we build walls of silence and fear.
Disguised by curtains of wine.

Monotony of years gone by.
Many faults I do have.
The Black and White.

Wasted years,
Wasted tears.
Our love is dead.


PeterVaillancourt©2009.

Gone

I blink, and you're gone. Everything I knew, everything I loved, gone before I knew you were leaving. One phone call, one phrase, one person shattered my world.
I'm still unsure how I got to this point.

Being born an Aquarius almost predestined me to become one of the leaders of tomorrow. Independently shaping my own future, calling my own bets, that's how I knew my life would always be until I met him. The guy who taught me everything about life, love, and happiness. This was … Read more »

never wanna die

I'll be good, never be bad
want you happy, never be sad
baby your all i have
you are the best part of my life
i see you and me living out a fantacy.

what i seen

Cant believe what i seen, when i seen what you did to me.
Im settin you free. Stay outt my life and outta my memory.

Always, but never again

Never forget my love for you
Always in my heart, not my life.

ive never been so scared

Ive never been so scared
ive never been so scared in my intire life
scared to love
scared to be hurt
but mostly scared how i could lose you

i dont mean to be scared
i want to belive you
when you say you would never hurt me
and that we will soon fall in love and stay there
i want to be fearless

but honey im scared
im scared about what people will think
about what they will say and more so
what they will do when … Read more »

forget 15 taylor try 14

Okay so im in the 8th grade and am 14 years old
ive already had my first kiss
my first drink
my first smoke
none of this im proud of
ive already watched kids get sent to jail
watched once inocent kids get pregnant.
this is the new generation,its sad
i find it sad
the names we give people,the things we say
are just plain sad and a disgrace to are generation
i can only wish that maybe we will see the light
and that things will go back to … Read more »

i should have known

We both knew
knew what the other person was doing
yet we both continueddoing it
and didnt speak of it

he was the first to do so
i knew he was cheating but couldnt face it
all my freinds told me it was true
and some even brought profe
so instead of breaking if off right there and then
i still loved him,so i tryed to play the same game

i started to cheat, and he knew it
he did speak of it,knowing what i knew
know … Read more »

they say were perfect

I was always the one to watch
i watched people screw up there lives
i watched people fall in love
fall in hate and also fall into a spiral
i was always the one watching
never the one living

one day this changed
one day all of a sudden
i was the one living
i owe this change to him
i soon fell in love,screwed up my life and fell in hate
all happened so fast

i fell in love
he was the one,my only
i never … Read more »

i thought you were mine

Ive know this boy my whole life
he was my saftey net
i knew he would always be the best friend
always ready to step up to the plate
when im feelin down or even mad
he would always some how find me and just sit in
silence untill i asked why he was there

'because im pretty sure is my job to make sure my sarah is okay & is safe'
and everytime after that i never asked why but instead when i finally turned to him,he … Read more »

my childhood friend

You were my childhood
you were 4 i was 1
bonded by the fact you were my first friend
my first crush, my first kiss
i miss those days more then you know
i want my bestfriend back

know we are all grown-up
everything has changed
you grew-up and the girls soon followed
ive watched u love,ive watched you hurt
i always had a word to say and you always thanked your childhood friend

so i sit here hoping,praying that maybe
just maybe im getting my childhood friend … Read more »

he is my only......<333

Okay so he called me beautiful
so he called me the one
he said i was wonderfully perfect
and that i must be a angel
that he was gunna prove to me that there not all the same

he promised that he would never hurt me
that he would always have my side
how i could spill my soul to him
and never have any doughts
about his love
and him being faithful

so he says he is one day goin to
prove to me how mutch … Read more »

Stopping the Cycle

The car comes screeching to a halt. My mom screams at my Dad to get out of the car. An 18-wheeler speeds by to our left, his loud horn makes me jump, hitting my head on the cold metal ceiling of the Toyota. My Dad, in his drunken belligerence, screams incoherently back. I am four years old and sitting in my favorite seat in the car, in between Mom and Dad. He reaches through me as if I’m not there and grabs my mom’s throat. She leans back and hits … Read more »

Taking Inventory

Anger under construction
Tension bulging the walls
Yet another day
In a house with so much potential
And so much unhappiness.

One super duty saw blade
To cut through the memories
One pounding hammer, a pointed claw
To break my sense of self
One whirring sander
To drown out the screams
One long screw
To twist deliberately, slowly
Through my heart
One sheet of drywall
To build a wall of lies
One box of ceramic tile
To lay me out square by square
One box of grout
To fill … Read more »

My Ex

My ex boyfriend did a wonderful thing, he became my EX boyfriend.

Forever a Love

Two years, ten months, twenty-three days. We were in love. We are in love. But you were the varisty football star and I was the band geek. It wouldn't have worked. Not when we were together. The high school ridicule would have shot down our relationship even more. Neither of us wanted it to end, but it needed to. I'm leaving in a few months. I'll be two thousand miles away. I will return for you. I am hopeful that I will get the chance to see you on … Read more »

Jose Rodriguez

He has always been there for me and now that i've changed schools everything has been a living nightmare.He's hiding something and everybody knows it.Yesterday I left him a message asking "is this where we say goodbye,is this where we end everything,they said our love was just a lie,were left with nothing." I let him know that i'm still his girlfriend and that he needs to start acting like it.And that even though I will love him forever that if it needs to be over then its over.His choice this … Read more »