Four Years of Crazy

The only reason I can come up with to explain this bizarre relationship is that it was my first opportunity to really let the less-than-nurturing part of my childhood manifest in all its hidden glory.

I can’t even remember how it started. I do remember him running through the halls of high school (as a senior), yelling out my name but purposely mispronouncing it. (At that age, does teasing still mean a he likes you?)

I also remember that two weeks into our quickly and intensely codependent relationship, … Read more »

Bossale Boyfriend

"There are these rituals to make someone not be able to love anyone else." Lucky (his real name John) told me. "But I'd never do that to you."

Strike 1.

"You never respected by beliefs!" He spat. "You're just mad because you have nothing to believe in!!!"

Strike 2.

"I am joining a monastery..." He cried. "It is the only place I have felt happy in my life." (We had been together for 2 years)

Strike 3.

Too bad I know nothing about baseball...

Never Ment to Be

He was a year older than me, I thought that was cool. He was a loser who couldn't get a girlfriend. I was just a girl that every boy wanted, but didn't care about. My friend thought it was a match made in Heaven, and so did I. For 5 months we didn't talk, bairly saw eachother, and I hated him, yet loved him. The day of out 6 month anniversary he called me a phsyco bipolar with no life. I was happy. He didn't truely like me, he just … Read more »

Checked my x off the list...

I Have Sex With My Ex

We broke up last April. I saw 3 women while we were apart. They were all very crazy. Now I get together with my ex-girlfriend on a regular basis and we have dinner and sex and an occasional sleepover. But I am no longer her boyfriend and she doesn't nag at me like she used to when we lived together. Summary of story - more sex, no nagging, it's all good!

Broken Hearts and Deployment let-down

My ex-boyfriend and I have been on and off again for 2 years now. It's weird to think it's been that long because we have spent maybe a total of a month of time around each other. Military relationships are hard but I committed to him both times we tried. The first time things were exciting and new... but hard because of the distance. Come to find out... he wasn't looking for anything long-term or serious... so when things fizzled and the distance became too much; he broke up with … Read more »

Divorce

You don't expect snow where I live. It happens north of here. OK, sometimes here too, but you don't expect it. Then the sky darkens, grumbles, and dumps it on you.

When the sun returns, the light is needle-sharp, but all the detail is gone.

"Do you know what she did?" Who?

"You deserve better." Nobody deserves anything. You get what you get.

I got snow. I do not intend to sweep it aside and … Read more »

My Summer of Laura

Laura was a dazzling, clattering spectacle of a girl, the kind of person who created a glorious racket wherever she went. That throaty laugh could boom out over the most crowded of nightclubs or city streets, and her aggressive allure made me dizzy. Close-cropped platinum hair paired with improbably black eyebrows; bony shoulders drawn up defiantly under the men’s shirts she favored; delicate features contorted as she sucked the bejeezus out of a cigarette. She was an androgynous, punk-rock Little Lord Fauntleroy.

We were both recent NYU graduates … Read more »

Life is wonderful

Wow, I spent 17 years with him and I'm just 35 now. I though marriage was for life and it was a committment I could not break.
My life is so much better now.
Single mom with an amazing 3 year old daughter.
Everything I have, he cannot take from me: my daughter, my family, my education. I definitely got the better deal.
I am so happy not to live with someone who tells me that everything I do or say is wrong!

Brotha From Anotha Motha

I first met Mike freshman year of college and he hated me. Our mutual friend Lisa tried to hook us up but it wasn't happening...

Me: a tall, chain smoking, loud Israeli girl

Mike: a shy townie with an Oasis "Don't Look Back in Anger" ring tone

Sophomore year I apparently saw him and his friend at a party and we played beer pong together. Me and my friend Julie together with Mike and his friend against another team. And I also apparently drunkenly told them to … Read more »

Questioned.

“Now, we don’t have any reason to believe that Ross is dangerous-it seems like his only agenda is to disappear as quickly as possible- but if, for any reason, he contacts you, please promise that you will not jeopardize yourself by attempting to help him.” I mentally interrupted Officer Burban’s lecture thinking “Fat fucking chance”.
This would be our third time talking on the phone, the cop and me. He was the officer in charge of Ross’s case and had questioned me about things pertaining to his personality, our … Read more »

Ex Libris: The End of a Chapter

He was a good waiter — the kind you tip once for his kindness, twice for his discretion. I was a shy student — the kind that’s easily smitten, but quickly spooked. The corner table was mine; he made that clear. My table was his; he made that clear as well. I wasn’t old enough to drink, but it didn’t matter. I couldn’t afford to order food, but he didn’t care. His coworkers shrugged. The whole thing was downright peculiar, they all agreed, but if he wanted to channel Nabakov, … Read more »

Naked Women Riding Powder Mountains on Bicycles

It isn't that I didn't love him. It isn't that I didn't want to make a life with him. It isn't that I didn't care. I just couldn't do it. I couldn't live with a man who objectifies women. I couldn't live with a man who felt like being able to date stripper after stripper after stripper somehow made him a man. Not just a man, but the man that all men wished they could be. Yeah, I couldn't do it. It isn't that I don't like Playboy. I just … Read more »

It isn't that I didn't love him. It isn't that I didn't want to make a life with him. It isn't that I didn't care. I just couldn't do it. I couldn't live with a man who objectifies women. I couldn't live with a man who felt like being able to date stripper after stripper after stripper somehow made him a man. Not just a man, but the man that all men wished they could be. Yeah, I couldn't do it. It isn't that I don't like Playboy. I just … Read more »

A perfect circle.

"I love you. I will always love you." I heard these words so often, I had started to believe them. Me, the girl who does not love, the girl who does not trust. Anyone. Ever. And then one day, it happened. He walked into my life. Swore he would never walk out. Ever. Everything I possessed, every thought, every feeling, went to him. Happy, in love, excited. All words used to describe me. All because of him. Who was I without him? Nothing. Who was I with him? A fool. … Read more »

He distorts truth. I suffer the consequences.

After 20 years I divorced him and lost all the "we friends". There were no "my friends." He was angry at being left. He made up stories, that's what he does. Tell stories. Grains of truth become elaborate lies that he then believes are the Truth. I pay the price for his lies. Lawyers got half of my settlement, he got the rest of my life. I do not know where to start to rebuild at 50.

The Cage

As the song bird who lives in a cage, my life has been till now. The bird in the golden cage sees not the bars, so intent on looking at life outside which lay beyond. Bars set around not of her own accord, but placed by the captor, appear invisible. As the singing wanes, a faint glimmer of the enclosure that surrounds her appears into view, until the captor distracts her into her song once more. Living so long in her cage, the dreamer forgets the … Read more »

Him

He's going bald. I got gorgeous.

Forever!

Our love will be forever. He said he'd never go after her i was the love of his life. I changed him. He never wants to be with no one else. We kissed right in front of her. The next Day he asked her out. I found out(11.9.07) he kissed me like if nothing had happen two days ago. He buys me a bear. Doesn't hold my hand in public. I play around why, you have a girlfriend? He stayed quite and with that silence he broke my heart. Hugged … Read more »

I believed him!

He always had something to tell me. Even when it was clear that he was in the other room with someone else he had to make up a lie saying she caused me to do it. i didn't want to. I was so stupid i believed you. Knowing it was a lie. You kissed me and told me I ran all the way over her to see you. Bullshit. All he wanted from me was sex. I was stupid enough to give it to him. After a year of not … Read more »