My Summer of Being 28 Again

I gave him my heart; he gave me agita. Could he have been conceived on my 11th birthday? According to Chinese astrology, we were both born under sign of the snake. A healer once said “that man” I was crying over was a relative in a past life, someone with whom I’d shared a heritage, perhaps a brother. Considering that in this life he’s an only child and I have a sister, maybe that’s why we couldn’t get it together. I used to be rational. Except possibly in matters of … Read more »

I don't Want YOU ANYMORE

It was the weekend... texting with my best friend at 6 am in the morning. I decided to go out and have fun. I dailed my ''favorite'' number and pushed the green button.
"Hello?'' he said. My heart beated with joy. I then asked.
"Hey babe, want to go out?'' i was hoping for a joyful response till he said.
"i can't i have plans.... why are you always in my business?"
"what?"
"why are you always in my business? YOUR ALWAYS WHERE R U GOIN AND STUFF??"
"HOLD … Read more »

I don't Want YOU ANYMORE

It was the weekend... texting with my best friend at 6 am in the morning. I decided to go out and have fun. I dailed my ''favorite'' number and pushed the green button.
"Hello?'' he said. My heart beated with joy. I then asked.
"Hey babe, want to go out?'' i was hoping for a joyful response till he said.
"i can't i have plans.... why are you always in my business?"
"what?"
"why are you always in my business? YOUR ALWAYS WHERE R U GOIN AND STUFF??"
"HOLD … Read more »

Construct Undone

Three weeks before our wedding, he walked out the door and I never saw him again. Ever. He said, “The best thing I can do for you is to get out of your life before I ruin it.” As far as I could tell, he was ruining my life at that moment. I felt like I was in one of those scenes in the movies where the actor is zoomed in on and the whole background is moving at the same rate, creating a whooshing effect … Read more »

He had a beard

My ex had a beard. We didn't have much in common, besides the fact that we were dating each other. We would take walks through the streets of Worcester and he would whisper sweet nothings in my ear. We held hands and shied away from big groups of college students who looked like they might be under the influence of something. We cuddled in my bed and I laughed a lot, happy to have found someone.

One time we sat on a stone bench, and he told me … Read more »

I hate you, and it bred love.

To my ex:

You were by far the worst person I have ever known. How I actually ended up with you, only God knows. A fixer upper, with emotional baggage, and a paralyzing inferiority complex that made life with you unbearable. You ripped apart those around you because you hated yourself so much, your ferocious tirades of hate and venom spewed forth with such force, at times I questioned whether I could ever recover from the searing statements. They still echo in my mind sometimes, a distant taunt from … Read more »

missed opportunity

Ex would've made a great drill-sergeant.

My boyfriend kissed me at midnight on New Year ’s Eve. We were standing on the roof of the local drug store. A friend and I had found our way up there when I was kid and I would go there when I was feeling down. It was my safe place. At sixteen I didn’t think I needed a safe place. I had him.
On New Year’s my best friend and I took a few beers from my parent’s fridge and met my boyfriend and some of … Read more »

Lesson Learnt?

On the 18th of November 2007 I made the the biggest mistake of my life. I let the only person I've ever loved walk away, I should have fought for us but I didn't, I just let him. Too young to realise my mistake, for nearly 2 years I've denied my mistake. After a stay in hospital and a breakup with someone I didnt care about, I admitted my mistake but at the time, he wouldnt talk to me, I was the thing that he hated most in the world. … Read more »

Delorean

All show, no go, only blow.

Red Hot Ferrari

Fuel Port, "Best Performance Requires Premium".

The First Heartbreak...

When one is in the seventh grade, one doesn't question the affection of boys. If they show any interest in you, other than an object to torment and throw empty milk cartons at, it is mysterious and true, and should be taken on faith and hope. Faith and hope, perhaps, was something my 13 year old self had just a little too much of.
He was too tall for our age, and wider than two of me. He always seemed to lurch his way down the one hallway at my … Read more »

No one warned me about him

It sounds cliche' but when he walked in the door that first day and gave me the look it really was like no one else existed. No one warned me about him. About all the lies and damage he would do to my life, and really to me.
He began to make sure that he was always where I was a slowly but surely worked his way in. It started with calls to out work when he wasn't there. Then he … Read more »

haunted

I'm in the most wonderful relationship and I wonder if it would upset her to know that I still love my ex? Not in a wanting-to-be-with-him kind of loving, but I will always love him. And I'm the one who left. And he will never ever forgive me.
We built a baby together, but then he found that he couldn't be nice to that new person and then he couldn't be nice to me. And after thirteen years I called it and he said "you never gave me a … Read more »

Sparkle In Her Eye

Corvette Likes, Bling Bling Whets Appitite.

He wasn't really there.

He was my first boyfriend. Of course, I was head over heals in love with him. I thought we were the perfect couple. But I had no clue about what was going on in his head. Turns out he was never into me. Here's how I found out:

He only ever treated me like a friend. I was fine with that. I liked him way too much. But later on, I was fed up with it. I decided to dump him because he would never show any affection.

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brilliant lawyer mean husband lands alone

It took twenty seven years of marriage a lot of money in therapy to figure out six words.

The Miffed, The Logic, and The Ain't Got

You say…
you’ve been
Hurt, Misled, Snubbed
But you forget
It was
You
Who
Became
Secluded, Distant, Quiet

And I wondered
Was it
I
who
made
You
the Man
Or…
You are?

Miffed
by
the
Perplexities
of
the
Human mind

Emotion
Less

Logical
You say
Not knowing
No longer wanting
Pushed away
Far!

Ain’t got
Time
Patience
Love
for
All
Everything
You say.

My mistake, but I tried to fix it.

I was young, stupid, and listened to people that were also young and stupid. They said I should be married, that I was growing older by the second, and that I was going to be an old maid before I knew it. I was a fool and took their words to heart. I embraced fear and settled with someone that really wasn't ready to get married. Were I to not have pushed so hard, I would have found that this person would never have made it … Read more »

Same old story

Hard to come up with anything new, isn't it? Fall in love, think she's perfect, throw your heart away. Then find out eight years later she's spent the last year screwing somebody else behind your back and lying about it every night. Throw her out, fall apart, thank god for good friends who keep the razors away, start breathing again. Then start it all over again. Wonder if any of them will have a happy ending?