Despite everything, I still feel happy.
Backstory
I have had my share of grief filled events in my life, so I'm no stranger to sadness. The news from Connecticut, however, fills me with a depth of sorrow I've never felt before. I've cried for days, pondered what I can do, wondered about the world we live in, and cried some more in frustration and confusion. Surprisingly to me, I also have moments of happiness unrelated, of course, to events of late. Unrelated to any particular thing that is happening in my life. Just a deep, solid feeling of happiness.I've been thinking of Anne Franks' words, "Despite everything, I believe that people are really good at heart." I used to wonder and marvel that she could write such a thing. I'm still not sure I could embrace her level of gracefulness, but I'm encouraged and grateful that I've been given a little piece of grace that allows me to find my own corner of happiness in such a sorrow-filled time.
by Dragonflower in Happiness on Dec 18, 2012 | 
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DynamicDbytheC says,
A lovely Backstory. I am so happy to be reminded of Anne Frank's quote. Her positive attitude probably came from those who helped her. Many and most people are good, I agree with Anne Frank. However, the minority of bad suck the life out of you. They do bad most of the day and it can often overshadow the 80-90% who are good. I understand your moments of happiness in sad times. I try to find moments of peace and happiness while watching the person I love the most suffer with advanced cancer. It is surprising to have those moments when your circumstances should have you curled up in a ball crying. You belong at Smithmag and are an amazingly contributor with both memoirs and comments. Merry Christmas.Dragonflower says,
Thank you very much for your kind and thoughtful words. My ex-husband (my daughter's dad) is also suffering like James. It just breaks my heart especially when some of the "cures" seem to cause even more suffering. My job is to be strong for my daughter and to help her find those moments of happiness too. It is good to know that you find times of peace and happiness too. I think when you have a huge love, like you seem to have, it helps. Love is powerful and conquers much adversity. It gives you this solid core that you can draw from when everything else that's happening suggests just curling up in a ball and giving up. Thank you again for enouraging words for me. They mean more than you can imagine! Take care, and Happy Christmas!